Still up to my ears in packing boxes yet, feeling the need of connecting with you all, my faithful blog readers.
Here I am to share a few of my feelings that I have about my life at this moment in time.
I appreciated my daughter, Karen’s willingness to post on my blog site, sensitive thoughts written about her Dad on his birthday.
As Karen mentioned, I have sold my house which, has been our family home in Kelowna for the past 26 years and will be living in a nearby retirement residence.
A few weeks ago, I began to take a closeup look at my present stage of life. Over the years our home— being both Nels' and my desire — has enabled us to use it to welcome not only family, but many strangers and acquaintances that soon became very dear friends.
During days of ministering to seniors, our large family room or patio was often a crowded scene of laughter, fun and a sharing of each other’s problems and joys.
After Nels' passing, I still continued to have friends in for meals, led Bible studies and celebrated many special birthdays and holidays with friends, as well as neighbours.
Now, as years have brought about changes to many: health issues, aging bodies, some no longer driving their cars, I find my welcoming home being used less and less. Though with gratefulness I have no major health issues, I am still driving my car and still have the ability to handle all the issues that arise in keeping a large house in good order — none of these are the reasons for my decision to leave my comfortable and lovely home.
I also am saying “good-bye” to my pretty and newly-rennovated kitchen as of last summer.
Loneliness is always a factor for someone like me, a special loneliness that never completely goes away. This may be part of the reason for my move — yet not the main reason.
So, I began to wonder if God just might have another plan for me, should the rest of my life be long or short.
Could God still use me and my personality to bless the lives of others in some way? But, I would need to be near more people.
Arriving at this decision to move, my problem was solved!
Though I am a people person, (generally liking people) God will help me demonstrate His way, putting my faith in Christ as I take part in the new living society in which I'll find myself.
I know God can help me see the inner beauty in others, being gentle and respectful to everyone.
The Dalai Lama once said, “Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can’t help them, at least don’t hurt them.”
Just maybe my life will cause others to ask the reason why I wear a smile, (most of the time) and they just might see that "hope" I have within. Someone called it, “living out loud.”
I guess I just want to keep sowing seeds and let God take care of the harvesting.
Psalm 131 seems to sum it up for me — “My heart is not proud, Lord, my eyes are not haughty; I do not concern myself with great matters or things too wonderful for me. But I have calmed and quieted myself, I am like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child I am content… Put your hope in the Lord both now and forever more.”
As changes are happening in my life, I can say I have not been anxious. Tired, yes. But not anxious.
I feel at peace and am enjoying the purging that is happening as I free myself of “things."
My family has graciously accepted the fact that it is our “house” that has been passed to another — not our “home.”
The five Ws of life:
- Who you are is what makes you special, do not change for anyone.
- What lies ahead will always be a mystery, do not be afraid to explore.
- When life pushes you over, push back harder.
- Where there are choices to make, make the one you won’t regret.
- Why things happen will never be certain, take it in stride and move forward.
"The Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.” — Psalm 121:8
“Our Father refreshes us on the journey with some pleasant inns, but will not encourage us to mistake them for home.” — C.S. Lewis
— beulah
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